"Essential" a fiction piece, By Nicholas Hawkins Phone, keys, wallet, cigs, lighter. Quick little wake up shot. Check the phone. Marcus is up - omw. Shit, it’s starting. Where’s the cash, fuck not enough, enough for now. Ughhh ok ok ok ok. The drive is the worst part, but at least I still have the car. My [...]


Hi guys. I’m Amanda. I’ve been called “Amandivan” in the past because of my anxious ass. (Combo of Amanda and Ativan for those who weren’t sure). I’m mostly sharing so others who feel like I do know they’re not alone 🖤    Anxiety is a mother fucker right. I have these things that I call [...]

Trainwrecking 101

By Dave R. -------- I wanted to die, but I didn’t want to kill myself. That seemed like a damn hassle. How the fuck did that happen? I was the guy that stuff always seemed to work out for. And not like, barely work, amazingly, unbelievably, and with very little effort on my part [...]

The Comeback Kid

Hi guys here's a piece by my second guest author - Gillian! I met Gill a few years ago while she was moving into a friends / going crazy with Christmas decorations in the best way! Though we don't know each other that well- I will always remember how sweet she was when Riley was [...]

C is for ..

Connect. Idiots. 😂 And also Chris Brown. I was scrolling through my Facebook feed over the last couple days, watching as other people reflected on the past year and some, the past decade. I briefly reflected back on the last year by posting a bunch of pictures on my Instagram story, 🥴 but I very [...]

Don’t fucking 302 Me.

30. Probably my most difficult year. Every year has it's ups and downs, but 30 really put me through the ringer mentally, and some days definitely still suck a lot, but here I am writing again (begrudgingly, thank you autorenew lmao) and trying to pull myself from a sometimes crippling depression. This isn't a give [...]