Iโ€™m not a regular mom..

Iโ€™m not a regular mom..

Some days I really fucking hate moming. I hate saying that I hate it because I'm not supposed to or I shouldn't. But I do. I know how amazing my daughter is, she is the light of my life. But holy god can this child test my very last nerve... like the literal last one. [...]

Donโ€™t fucking 302 Me.

30. Probably my most difficult year. Every year has it's ups and downs, but 30 really put me through the ringer mentally, and some days definitely still suck a lot, but here I am writing again (begrudgingly, thank you autorenew lmao) and trying to pull myself from a sometimes crippling depression. This isn't a give [...]

My therapist said Iโ€™m an asshole.

I tell Naz to give me a few days before I agree to get on the plane, I say I need to get the apartment packed up (half cleaned sorry Derek) but really I still have a little money left over and a part of me that wants to die. But the day has arrived [...]

Philadelphia is for lovers. And really good dope.

It's Christmas night at residence - i have to leave around 3 for the airport so I forgo sleep - instead i lay on the couch staring up at the ceiling, anxiety brewing. Everyone there has tried to convince me to stay - staff and clients, right up until I step out of the techs [...]

Bonnie and Clyde 2013 (True Rehab Romance).

Bonnie and Clyde 2013 (True Rehab Romance).

It's no surprise that addiction makes you do strange things.. strange crazy fucking stupid things. Like for instance marrying someone you meet in halfway. This is a story of true romance, one to tell the grandchildren about . ๐Ÿคฃ not really but here it goes, Once upon a time..... It was the end of June [...]

Cha-cha-changes. ๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿผ

Last April our psychiatric department closed at one of the hospitals โ€“ this alone did not mean a ton for me work wise as most of my time was spent at the CRC (crisis response center), but it was definitely the start of some major changes. At the time I was per diem working anywhere [...]

Winter storm Riley (also how tinder saved my life)

Winter storm Riley (also how tinder saved my life)

So if you haven't been living under a rock, or holed up in a bathroom doing drugs, there was this nor'easter storm Friday that was really fucking awful and it was named Riley and NATURALLY something super dramatic had to unfold for me during said storm. Now I don't know why I let anyone convince [...]